The Other Side of the World

Heading back home from a day at Silver Dollar City we crossed the bridge at Table Rock Dam. As we crossed you could see the Branson Bell out on the lake. I said " Hey, guys look at that! Do you see that BIG boat out on the lake?" Aidan replied, "HEY THAT LOOKS LIKE DADDY'S BOAT!" Then Allton,  "DADDY!!!!"  Alltons outstretched hands didn't make it any easier. I sighed and said "no guys that isn't daddy's boat. Daddy is in Singapore, on the other side of the world." "On the other side of the world" I said quietly to my self with another small sigh. Gripping the steering wheel in a desperate attempt to bring my self back from  mental travels, I realize how far "other side of the world" is. It is easy to go about your day, fill them up, count them down, slowly put them behind you.......but when you STOP.....it becomes a pill that is hard to swallow. It seems as though I have told myself that he is only an airplane flight away. At times I want to sit on the porch like a small child and wait for him to appear out of the distance, but I know I can't. I need to hold the fort down. I will tell myself, "Its only 8 more days." then I will suck it up and start moving forward once again until that wondrous day that we get to go PICK UP DADDY! :)

Breath. It's a new day.

Trying to compose your self under pressure isn't easy. I for one am terrible at this. I would like to fool myself into thinking that the only people that know this are Close friends, My best friends, and the occasional family member. Sounds like to many all ready. lol I am sure it is more like anyone I come in contact with that day.
We are constantly trying to plead our case in hopes of some reinforcement for our actions. However we fail to forget that we are still human and still surrounded by this world that could care less if we are good moms or bad moms. But make NO mistake they WILL tell you if they think you aren't upholding their standard of good. I am trying and that is all I can say today. I hope there are more that have those kinds of days.
When you wake up and you are sure that you just fell asleep, when you feel like hiding in a linen closet just to escape the circus, when you feel like all hope is lost and you can face another min.......... simply put yourself on auto pilot and know that tomorrow IS a NEW day! Gods grace is new each day and his mercy endures forever! So when you wake up and you feel like you can't do it all again today, just know that there is always someone out there wanting to take your place, who had to say goodbye to their little baby yesterday, who is in fear that they wont get to see their child ever again, or doesn't know where their baby is. Your day...MY day hasn't been that bad. My kids were sent to me for a blessing! God has said it in his word. He also tells us how to raise them so they can "rise up and call us blessed".  I love my children and I know they love me too. Thank you God for putting them in my life even though often times I would like to donate them to a Zoo. :)